Customs of my tribe
I’m not a believer, but the Anglican tradition remains an important part of who I am.
By Philip Pullman Published 20 June 2011
A request from the Archbishop of Canterbury, Rowan Williams, to explain what I mean by calling myself a "Church of England atheist" is not to be ignored. I'd better begin with the word "atheist".
That's the word I prefer to use, because I'm almost certain that there is no God, no Creator, no heaven, no hell. I have seen no evidence for them. I have never had any experience of being spoken to by God or of seeing him in the sky or in a tree or anywhere else. Wherever I look, whether in the present day or in recorded history, I see the processes of nature and the activities of human beings but no sign of God. That's why I call myself an atheist.
However, just because I haven't seen or heard him, it doesn't mean that God doesn't exist. He might have made this suburb of the universe but then withdrawn to another. He might have grown old and died. He might have been overthrown and exiled.
I don't know and those things are possible, remotely; so, to describe myself with strict accuracy, I should say that I'm an agnostic - or, to use a term invented by the neuroscientist David Eagleman in his ingenious little book Sum, a "possibilian".
As far as I can tell, God is not here now and he never was. As for the Christian claim that Jesus was his son, who existed before the world was created and who was given to the world so that his death might save us all from sin, it strikes me as unlikely, to say the least.
On that claim is founded an enormous edifice of theology, which, for all its absurdity, is clearly not the work of stupid people. The enormous structures of elaboration, qualification and speculation are a striking testament to human ingenuity and inventiveness. But I think that it's a collective work of fiction.
Nevertheless, I do find religion very interesting. To my mind, William James, in The Varieties of Religious Experience, takes the right stance towards it. He ignores the theology and looks calmly at the psychological effects and consequences of belief, making human sympathy the key to his basic approach:
Religious melancholy, whatever peculiarities it may have qua religious, is, at any rate, melancholy. Religious happiness is happiness. Religious trance is trance . . . Who does not see that we are likely to ascertain the distinctive significance of religious melancholy and happiness, or of religious trances, far better by comparing them as conscientiously as we can with other varieties of melancholy, happiness and trance, than by refusing to consider their place in any more general series and treating them as if they were outside of nature's order altogether?
Religion is something that human beings do and human activity is fascinating. I have never had an experience that I could call religious, though I have known two or three short passages of intense, transcendental feeling - that is to say, experiences of about 15 to 20 minutes, during which my perception of things in the external world (one was a storm on a beach; another was a journey home on a winter evening on the Tube and bus from Charing Cross Road to Barnes) seemed to become enlarged and clarified to include many things, all of which I was able to see without losing sight of everything else.
These visions of the real world were laced through with patterns and connections and correspondences. They were accompanied by a feeling of intense, calm excitement. I felt that I was seeing the truth, that all things were like this and that the universe was alive and conscious and full of urgent purpose.
Perhaps "transcendental" is the wrong word: there was nothing other-worldly about these moments, nothing "spiritual". Rather, this material world was more intensely present and alive than I had ever felt it to be before.
I don't know what happened to evoke such a feeling. Certainly, drugs had nothing to do with it. But I think that if my mind had been inclined to religious explanations, it would have been easy to feel that I had been granted some kind of vision.
These were my only experiences of anything that could be called "visionary". But why "Church of England"? It isn't a term that might as well be arbitrary or made on aesthetic or whimsical grounds. Martin Rees, until recently president of the Royal Society, has spoken of his desire to be buried in an English country churchyard, according to the rites of the Anglican Church. Despite his lack of belief in God, he feels an attachment to what he calls the "customs of [his] tribe".
I completely understand. If I'd thought of that phrase before he did, I would have used it myself. I am English and I was brought up to go to church every Sunday, to say my prayers, to behave in certain ways in church - to bare my head, for example. I was baptised when I was a baby and confirmed when I was 12.
I belong to the last generation that was brought up using the language of the 17th century as the appropriate, or the natural, or at least the respectful way to talk to or about God. Many have lamented the way in which the King James Bible and The Book of Common Prayer have been replaced by translations and forms of service that lack the majesty, the beauty, the poetic resonance, and so on, of the older versions. All of that is worth saying and I agree with it up to a point, but we can make a fetish of these things. The Bible I turn to first these days if I want to be sure of the meaning of a passage is the New Revised Standard Version.
Nevertheless, those resonances remain. Some of them are personal. I wouldn't expect any-one else to love the collect from the evening prayer - "Lighten our darkness, we beseech thee, O Lord; and by thy great mercy defend us from all perils and dangers of this night; for the love of thy only Son, our Saviour, Jesus Christ. Amen" - for the reason I do, which is that my grandfather taught it to me when I was six or seven so that it would make me feel safe in the dark, and it did.
He was a clergyman and it's his voice I hear when I remember the beautiful prayers from matins or evensong or the Communion service. We can't abandon these early memories, by which I mean both that it's impossible and that it would be wrong. It is those that have made us and not we ourselves. Even if I became a Buddhist, I couldn't help but be a Church of England Buddhist.
Consequently, when I survey the wondrous mess that the sexophobic zealots in the Anglican Church have tried to bring about in recent years, I feel both distress and anger. None of my business in a way, because I'm not a believer, but at the same time it is my business: because of those memories of mine and because the Church of England is the established church of this nation. It belongs to all of us. We're all entitled to hold opinions about it.
And these demented barbarians, driven by their single idea that God is as obsessed by sex as they are themselves, are doing their best to destroy what used to be one of the great characteristics of the Church of England, namely a sort of humane liberal tolerance, the quality embodied in the term "broad church". A broad church is exactly the sort of church I like. Inclusive, not exclusive; more concerned with helping people in distress than in maintaining strict forms of worship and a literal reading of the Bible; and, above all, characterised by a dislike of fanatical inquisition into beliefs and motives. What goes on in people's minds and hearts is their own business and, what's more, it's likely to be largely unknown even to them. What matters is not what they believe, but what they do.
The Church of England, at its best, knew that and acted on it and, while any scraps of that tradition remain, I'm happy to be known as a Church of England atheist.
Philip Pullman's latest book is "The Good Man Jesus and the Scoundrel Christ" (Canongate, £10.99). The "His Dark Materials" trilogy - "Northern Lights", "The Subtle Knife" and “The Amber Spyglass" - is published by Scholastic (£7.99 each)
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27 comments
That all sounds reasonable enough.
I don't particularly have any warm fuzzy feelings for the church as a meaninful heritage (or similar). I remember in primary school being sent to the front of the church at easter or w/e and being blessed seperately because I was an unbaptised and I guess evil child on his long road for hell. So I can only take your oppinion as that of a person who enjoys being included, which must be nice.
I think there's certainly a psychology that requires intuitive sets of morals and models for understanding the world, believes, and I get that it's easier to go with the thousand years tested models -The church certainly hasn't destoyed everything all at once; but, if religion is not a good model it should be rejected. Why hold onto something just because it's been around a good length of time.
While everyone dicks around with the question of ahiesm and the non/existence of god they are missing out the more important debates about how the economy is dysfunctional and the propogation of a further detahced upper class. So many good things to discuss, religion is not one of them in any sense.
P.S. I love your books, most of them.
An article to generate thought or discussion.
However,terms such as "athiest" or "agnostic" can only be defined negatively. Can there be titles given to those who do not believe in Russell's kettle, or spaghetti or my own dragon, orbiting in outer space and being responsible for all activity in the universe ? We should confine ourselves to terms that can be defined only positively, e.g. rationalist and scientific humanists, or free thinkers or brights, etc.
Me, I'm an atheist who misses the pre-Henry VIII Catholic England and its successor that Might Have Been. The Church of the murals (later painted over). The Mariolatrous England of pageant and panoply and country matters. The Church underwritten not only by popes and saints but by elves and goblins. The Church of Shakespeare.
The Human England.
Consider the enormous edifice of cosmology and evolutionary biology - built by not-stupid people on an assumption for which there is abosolutly no real evidence. Its a choice Charlie. The point is: why make either choice - that is the ultimate question.
I'm a Catholic and have many of the feelings of Mr Puillman. I am what I am because of that background and I am always emotionally moved by the great cathedrals and churches, the rites, the music, etc. What would Europe (and much of the rest of the world) be without the christian roots? Yes, there were very bad times in history as a result of religious fanaticism and bigotry. Take Nazism, the prejudice against Jews. Are these not also of Christian origin? However, you won't find God as your next door neighbour, but then God does exist everywhere you look and touch. Take whatever you will - a flower, a bee, an ant, the universe, the mind, the eye, etc. Is it possible that all this complicated but perfectly functioning structure/s came out of nothing? Doesn't all this speak of a great mind behind it all? I don't know about Christ, or Buddha, or Mohammed, or whatever you believe in. All these seem to claim something impossible to comprehend rationally. But then everything seems to be part of a chain, and their claims of divine nearness does excite the imagination of people turning some of them into extraordinary beings (St Augustine, St Francis, St Catherine of Avila, etc). But then also, does not religion (and its consequent divine inspiration) make people do evil things such as the fundamentalist do (the inquisition, the religious wars, the crusades, the twin towers, etc etc)? Are we better off without religion? Personally, I don't think so. My roots (and probably old age) still push me towards the comfort of religion.
'I am always emotionally moved by the great cathedrals and churches, the rites, the music, etc.'
Not one of these is Christian. Indeed, they are all deliberately pagan, except for music.
Kier: What exactly is Christian? Are you a JW or a Mormon?
Theists can claim to be rationalist and scientific, free thinkers and brights. A description that does not belittle is more likely to be acceptable- 'humanists' perhaps suffices, though whether 'Church of England humanist' makes much sense is doubtful.
'I'm happy to be known as a Church of England atheist.'
But to describe yourself with strict accuracy, Philip, you should say that you are a Church of England agnostic. Fuzz has long been a characteristic of the Church of England. Centuries ago, deity became impersonal to large numbers of Anglicans, as well he might, as those same people were making a lot of money by less than socially acceptable means. Then came the Tractarians, theists who were absorbed and even welcomed, in the good old British tradition of compromise, even if they appeared to contradict the 39 Articles. It must be fifty years ago that a young curate confided to me that he was not sure that God existed. So agnosticism is sort of ok, in the CoE- the national church, as intended. But downright atheism looks un-fuzzy; and I can understand Rowan looking down his beard at the idea of a CoE atheist.
it''s a very good article Philip. I'm sure your experiences and thoughts are representative of many British people brought up in the 20th century.