Iam lying in bed in the afternoon reading a fascinating article in the Times Literary Supplement – a very good review of the film Amour by Adam Mars-Jones, if you want to know – when I hear two loud bangs from downstairs, in quick succession.
A nasty smell climbs up the stairs and the smoke alarm goes off. Those things never make a pleasant noise, do they? Why does no one have the wit to make them emit the stirring sound of the red alert noise in Star Trek, or – for even older customers, to really give them the heebie-jeebies – a Second World War air-raid siren?
Anyway, all this is by the by, as it is clear grievous disaster has stricken the Hovel and I am going to die horribly.
Death by fire has always struck me as a particularly nasty way to go, although neither am I a fan of its wetter counterpart, drowning, or its crunchier one, being eaten by a shark. Reports of shark attacks on humans always affect me strongly and it may well have been reading of a recent one off the coast of California that made me take to my bed in the first place.
Through the roof
I suppose I’ve had a good run in the Hovel – five years or so of not being nagged by anyone and not tidying up unless I really feel like it. True, I now have mice and piles of books that, were the roof to be removed, would be visible from space; but I also have peace of mind, of a sort, and it is in this frame of mind that I prepare to meet my maker, if such an entity exists.
I do not have time, I reflect, to put my affairs in order – that would take about a year, entirely devoted to putting my affairs in order, allowing for a maximum of five hours’ sleep a night and only one main meal per day – or even to call my great friend John Moore and tell him that, yes, he can come round and have my red 12-string 1967 Baldwin semi-acoustic after all.
I mean, I could call him and tell him that but it wouldn’t be in such a great state by the time he found it. (John has been much on my mind lately, what with the Jimmy Savile affair: it is a subject that seems tailor-made to justify a reunion of his band, Black Box Recorder, and the writing of a really creepy and disturbing song. After all, his songwriting partner, Luke Haines, managed the same, to great effect, on the subject of Gary Glitter on a solo album a few years ago.)
In the end, though, I decide that while death may be, in the words of J M Barrie, an awfully big adventure, it would also be massively tiresome and inconvenient, so I decide to stir myself and see what’s going on downstairs. The smoke is really getting quite thick and the stench is becoming insupportable. For some reason – and this is a detail that only occurs to me long afterwards – I do not take one of the little fire extinguishers with me, and all I am wearing is my dressing gown. I suppose I am giddy with bravado. I am also, above all, curious as to what could have happened.
It turns out that there is a very simple explanation: I have been feather-headed. I always used to laugh at the warning on certain items of soft furnishing: “carelessness causes fire”. One of my little comedy routines, which I flatter myself to think were found amusing, was to muse on this aloud and then go through a pantomime of a Boy Scout tutorial whereby the scoutmaster, instead of having to go through all sorts of business with bits of wood and string in order to teach his charges how to make fire in the wild, would simply have to walk into a tree, or drop something from his pocket instead. It is not a joke I will make any longer. It turns out that I have, about an hour earlier, put a pan of water on with two eggs in it, so that I might have, later, a teatime hardboiled- egg sandwich as a special treat.
This is the end
However, a combination of incipient senility and an unusually engrossing edition of the TLS conspired to make me forget all about this. The bang, the smoke and the stench were caused by the eggs exploding. I reset the alarm and then put it in a drawer so it doesn’t start going off again. (I’d put it outside on the terrace but it looks like rain.)
I do worry, though. I’ve never done this before, unless I’ve been pissed or stoned. Now, it turns out, I can contrive my own end even without being intoxicated. It is, I feel, a turning point. But later on, when I recover the scattered bits of egg, the whites turn out to be, if tough, perfectly edible.